Saturday, July 31, 2021
Each person has their own unique way of handling grief. Personally, I tend to keep everything I possibly can; then about once a year or so go through it - usually wondering why I've kept this or that and each time I get rid of a little more. I did this over 30 years ago when my mother passed and again with Jared. I had put his clothes that I kept back in the dresser due to Jared's Jeans (please see that page for an explanation). While I did make a few things that sold I haven't done it for a while, but hope to. The difference with Jared - I've never gone through his things or wanted to.
Now, it was time to go through his things and to take his clothes out of the dresser and put them in a storage bin. But why now Lord? It was a few weeks later that I thought to myself, "I can't believe it's going to be 5 years since Jared died." That's when I had my "lightbulb" moment. The number 5 in Hebrew represents God's Grace. It is all in His timing. I confirmed this on Biblestudy.org - the number 5 symbolizes God's grace, goodness, and favor toward humans and is mentioned 318 times in Scripture. 5x5 is grace upon grace - seen in John 1:16, "For from His fullness we have all received grace upon grace."
I know we've all heard the song "Amazing Grace" but why is grace so amazing and so powerful? My attempts to answer this would be very feeble indeed, so I'm just going to give the definition of grace as found in the Strong's Concordance. It is word #5485. Graciousness/gratifying, divine influence on the heart and it's reflection in the life; favor, gift; grace - particularly that which causes joy, pleasure. Every kind of favor, blessing, good as proceeding from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
Our first encounter with grace is, usually, the saving grace seen in Titus 2:11, "For the grace of God has appeared bringing salvation to all people,". In this verse Strong's states that Grace is exhibited in the pardon of our sins and admission to the divine kingdom. Then Ephesians 2:8 explains that salvation is a gift. "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is a gift from God;".
We are exhorted in 2 Peter 3:18, "but grow in the grace and
knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ." How does one grow in grace? Stay under the faucet!! In other words, stay close to the Source - Jesus, the Father, and don't let anything block the flow of the Holy Spirit. I believe every 'Life Lesson' has caused me to grow in grace. Each one represents a choice I've had to make. Let me tell you, lest you think I'm floating on a cloud, that in the last 5 years I have not always chosen wisely and those Life Mistakes would be waaay past 20 lessons!!
I want to let you know that on July 15th I did go through Jared's things
and his clothes are now in a bin - except for a few T-shirts
that might have ended up in my closet :-)